My New Life

Welcome to day one of my new life!

I spent the week experiencing wildly swinging emotions. From jubilation to despair, fierce anger to white hot desire, they were all there. So I started wondering why, smack in the middle of my living years, am I in such turbulence?

After all I am a middle age woman. Not too bad to look at. Some days full of swagger and confidence, other days a mishmash of uncertainty. I am employed. Have great young adult kids. Two loving and loyal dogs. Shouldn't life have evened out by now?

If I really want to admit it, the answer is obvious. I want, no need, a relationship. After finally ending a stagnant, stale, energy depleting marriage, I want to have some fun! I want to feel wanted and desired by a member of the opposite sex. I want to connect and be connected to. I am not looking for happily ever after - the big Relationship. Shudder worthy thought. There is too much exploring to be done. BUT I don't want a one night fling. So what is the middle ground? Not so sure on this.

Guess I will just have to dive in and find out.

Join me for the journey.

Meltjie